Is it true? Is age nothing but a number? Here I sit on the brink of 30 wondering this.
Seriously on the brink.
Brink = edge = tomorrow I’m turning 30.
Here I am still getting carded for beer (with two little ones in tow), battling adult acne, and feeling forever unfashionable inside while outwardly proclaiming I opt for a classic style. How did 30 just kind of sneak up on me?
My 20s weren’t spent as a wild child. I wasn’t roaming around trying to find my partner. I feel fortunate that I found him early on and we’ve been together since I was 17. We defied others expectations with our early marriage and didn’t have babies right away, instead we filled our homes and hearts with bulldogs. We took our time having babies and until after I had finished college and had a couple years professional experience under my belt.
I enjoyed my 20s and even though there are regrets and things in hindsight I wish I had done. I don’t regret any of the big decisions I made. I can look back on my life and be really be proud of the places I went, the relationships that flourished, and the little people I created.
When I was younger 30 just seemed so…old. Looking back when I thought about 30 then, everyone seemed to be so mature and polished. Time has definitely found a way of getting away from me.
So what’s changed from my perception to present day reality? Is 30 really the same now as it has always been? Not really that old after all? Or, has technological advances and societal expectations morphed how 30 is perceived?
Although I can’t say for sure, I think it may be a little of both. Longer lifespans, delaying baby making, advances in beauty products, and youthful celebrity images have created this illusion that 30 isn’t that old.
I’ve spent a bit of time these last few weeks leading up to the big day trying to figure out how I feel about turning 30. I know what my past perception of 30 is, how other people have approached it, and how other people are currently embracing it but I just haven’t felt a strong urge either way.
I really thought if I focused too much on turning 30, I was going to have an onset of depression. It just seemed like such a momentous occasion. Another milestone birthday that would alter my life and now that it’s almost here I feel the same.
Honestly I feel comfortable turning 30. At almost 30 I’m more accepting, confident, and self assured than I was at 20. I’m also happy with my place in life - my family and having the best job in the world.
So, with that I will say goodbye to my 20s. It was fun – I learned a lot, loved even more, and can’t wait to see what the next decade has in store!
How did/do you feel about turning 30?